I Need Help Getting Surgery

I will start this as I hate asking anyone for anything. Im not a lazy person who wanted to be where i am right now. But, unfortunately i am. Ive had 5 umbilical hernia repairs since 2009, the latest was Dec 19 2024. This right now is my biggest issue. I had a orchiectomy surgery August 1st 2025. I was off work until Oct 30th 2025. Even though i plead with the surgeon for more time, he did a return to work order, with no restrictions. I had a long term and short term disability plan through work, and at that time, i was about to switch to long term, but as it turns out, when the doctor puts a no restrictions on his return to work order, its done for the employer. But for me, returning to work with a plum sized lump in my right groin area, where they removed my testical, in blue jeans and steel toe boots (my work uniform) wasnt going to happen, but i tried. I was hurting in that uniform, and i knew at that point i wasnt going to hurt myself to prove to my doctors and employer i wasnt ready to return to work. I worked for a cemetery, i did alot of heavy lifting. So i told my boss i cant do this anymore, and walked out. He didnt even try to stop me, i was a loyal employee that was there for whatever was needed. A 6 year loyal employee. Now im fighting depression, and being bed ridden from pain mediation and lack of motivation. I cant sit, stand for long periods without pain. Even lying in bed is painful. I will gracious and thankful to everyone for this. Because im at a dead end. Ive tried everything else. Update. I have tried for several months to try to get insurance to deal with my medical issues. My only option is to wait for open enrollement in november and ultimately ill have a policy for january 1st. Some issues have gotten better, and others worse, but im still holding on. I have since been put on full disabilty but i dont get medicare until july 2027. I really appreciate the frens who have helped. At this point, its in Gods hands, i just need to have more faith.