For two days now I've been praying on whether or not my situation belongs here. I've finally decided that it's up to you guys. So I'll tell you my story and pray it's deserving, thank you for taking the time to read. About 3 years ago I met a man who made me change my mind about giving up on life. The most thoughtful, caring, loving man. He is 8 years younger then I but I loved him instantly. I used to have a firm belief that wherever someone is in there life's is due solely on there lack of desire to have better. That anyone could have/do anything if they just took the steps to get there, obviously some would have allot more steps then others. But I never saw it from the person who was never showed loves side. The person who was made to believe from the age of 3 that they were a bad person and they deserved nothing. There's a book called "a child called it" I read it 3 times and it is heart breaking about a young boy who was torchered and made to believe he was less then nothing. This book looks like a walk in the park when compared to the bringing up that my fiance had. I'm not down playing or judging what the boy in the book went through by any means, it was horrible. But even still when I listen to my fiance talk of his childhood  my heart breaks,I can't imagine for one second living through any of what was done to him. He was raised by "if you can call it raising" by a devil worshipper and a mother that loved him. He was tortured and made to fight for his life daily against his brothers. He never once was taken to church or told about God. I feel like I was put in his life not only to love him and help him to understand how amazing he is, I believe that his story is meant to be told. I believe I'm supposed to write a book of his story. We have been searching for an affordable RV or a van we could convert so that we could have a place to live that is not surrounded by crime and drugs. We currently live in SF in an sro and it's a very unsafe and unhealthy place to be. We also are trying our hardest to save the best little dog in the world. I would always here a dog screaming at the end of our hall until one day I couldn't take it anymore and talked the owner into letting us play with her for a while. We do that now as often as possible but she's not fully ours yet. We both get money that equals to 1,000 a month but that is not enough to get any rv or van that I've been able to come by. I just want to have a good life and to show my fiance and this angel of a dog that a good life can exist and they both deserve one. We are extremely thankful for having a roof over our heads I just know that without a little help we will most likely be stuck here. My fiance is very hungry too learn more of God, I was lucky enough to learn of God young and have had a relationship with him throughout my difficult life. I am unable to post anything on social media because due to an abusive ex stalking me I can't have any social media accounts. It's very hard to reach people without them. Please help if you can by sharing my story and praying for us. 

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