I'm not even sure what to say, I've never done this before. I've never asked for help from anyone but I guess desperation forces us to do things outside our normal character.

I was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer, 3 months ago. I had to leave my job because of my health. I am unable to work at the moment due to all the doctors appointments, treatments, and surgeries. Some days I'm so tired and have no energy I can barely get out of bed. To put the icing on the cake I just found out the other day I now have skin cancer which has turned into melanoma. They're going to have to remove half my nose and a good part of my cheek to get it all. I guess at times in life when it rains it can really become a thunderstorm.

Being all alone with no family to lean on because they are all deceased; I think that's what hurts most of all. I've been told all the probabilities of losing my life. However, I'm at risk of losing everything which I work so hard for throughout my life:  My home, my livelihood, all my savings are gone, and I cannot even keep my phone from being shut off let alone put gas in my car.

At times, I don't even know if I want to continue with this if it wasn't for my two Siamese cats who are my entire World and I'm terrified I may loose them because I have no money for food and their basic necessities. My love for them I know is the only anchor I have right now to this world.

As I've mentioned, I have never done this before or anything like this before. I don't even know what to do or say or even if I'm doing this correctly.

I spent 10 years of my life as a Firefighter/Paramedic with Milwaukee County. I served in the Military for a time. I was even a Mental Health Therapist for the past 10 years.  I dedicated my life giving to others even at my own detriment through physical and emotional scars never asking for help; which seems foreign to me now.

Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your time, your kindness, and Godbless.